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Oct 12, 2008
If I tell about it.....(kinda OT)
I have decided that if I focus on the positive that everything in our lives will turn around. I know that I have said this before but for the last week I have been trying hard to follow through.

With the economy the construction business is slow. Dad is supplementing by doing service on scooters and ATVS from his brothers shop. He is also selling new scooters that he buys from the factory. Anyway Mom bought Michael one when she got her money. Michael is honestly a BIG kid instead of a man. He decided that he was going to sell it since they sell for double. He did that and Dad ordered Michael 2 more since he had the money. He kept one and then put the other for sale. He now had one like the original one back and also another one to sell. He has since sold it and now has 1800 to invest in more. He once again has ordered 2 more and is awaiting on them to be shipped this week. When he sells these 2 he will have enough to buy 2 more plus keep 1800 for ourselves. The demand here for the scooters are so high that Michael and Dad can both sell them and not interfere with each other. Michael will keep his current job though and sell these on the side.

I am very optimistic that this is the way for us to begin to see the light again and be worry free like we were 2 years ago. I know that you will always be broke with kids but only 2 years ago I could go shopping and spend several hundred dollars in a day and not blink. I never worried about money like we are now. We always sponsored needy children at Christmas.

Today I splurged and went and had my hair frosted and my nails done that I had not been able to have done in I don't know how long.

It seems like when Braddy got sick our world collapsed. I refuse to let his condition bring down our lives like it has. I have accepted that b/c of his age he will probably have the problems for life and I want to begin to mend and heal our family. If you will please pray for one thing. The only thing I am having a problem with is getting past the look that I have saw so many times on his little innocent face when he was choking and coding on me. I relive that vision every day. Until that is out of my head I honestly do not think that I can close this chapter in our lives. Pray for this if you do not care. I want to close this horrible 2 years and only remember the happy times that God has given us. The devil can have all of his bad curses back and burn them. Carla

Oct 12, 2008
I understand the looks that haunt. I have two of them in my head from my youngest son. I am so sorry you have to have those in your life. I will pray that they cease to be in your mind, memory and are a thing of the past that you can let go and move on from. And great job on the scooter deal!! That sounds like such a wonderful "strike while the iron is hot" sort of deal that so many wish they could get in on but rarely have the opportunity.
Oct 12, 2008
Julie - I have three children. My youngest Katie is my refluxer. My first Ben was very colicy and is ADHD. My middle Jakob is pretty easy going. Katie had it bad as a baby no sleep for two years. She was on Nutramagin, Prevacid and Zantac. Thought we were through it but after age three it came back big time. After her scope she was put on Prevacid 45mg a day and mylanta as needed. Scope was in Sept. Showed damage in stomach and espophogus. It took about 7 months of medication and Reflux diet for her to start feeling better.
I will pray for you. It does take healing to be able to move forward. I pray that those visions of your son hurting will eventually leave your memory and you will find some peace.
Oct 12, 2008
Maggie is now 3 years old and reflux free (knock on wood). I still check in some to see how everybody is doing :) Hugs to all!
Hmmm, you got me wondering. My nephew bought a scooter recently. I wonder if he paid what it was worth or double? I'd hate to think they got jipped. I guess it gets ya no matter what you do.

I've had lots of trouble in my life and the best thing I've found to do is pray, forgive, and move on. I have to put forth effort every day not to sink into a funk and to keep my head looking forward not backward. Past is past....just try to remember that and you should be able to get through anything.

Oct 12, 2008
I am Jacky, mommy to Joslyn Olivia (April 2008) and Katelyn Isabel (November 2009).
Joslyn was dx'ed with Silent Reflux with breath apnea at 5 days old. VERY SCARY!
Katelyn is a spitter reflux baby. Started at 3 days old as well. (Both were/are breast fed.. symptoms came on when my milk came in).
Joslyn has been reflux free since she was 12 months (suffered poor weight gain for a few months) and Katelyn is now on Zantac... waiting to see if it works.
I am with you on the looks the stay with you. I will never forget the color of Joslyn's face when she stopped breathing. It was a shade of blue I have never seen before. I pray that god gives you the strength to look past I pray for that for myself.
Oct 12, 2008
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May God bless your mind with the rest and peace it needs now and forever more. May he continue to bless you and your family with times. I am so glad you shared here today and continue to keep the world in perspective.

Those looks that haunt are tough to get past especially seeing your child code.

Check with your
doctor first!