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Jul 24, 2008
All my life is ever going to be is a WRECK waiting to happen!
Yes it is from me and no I am not going to just dwell on everything bad. I am just to the point now I am beyond disgusted with life. I am so ready to run and God knows where I will go... I just need someone to share everything with right now besides Michael and my Mom. I am not going to worry them no more. Yes they are wonderful support but I can not put no more burden on Michael when he is trying so hard to support us financially and on Mom b/c she has to care for my nephew and my grandmother. This is nothing to do with the PPD this time. Everything is just hit at once and there is no way out this time.

I just want to update on the boys. I took them back Mon to the pedi for recheck on ears. All 3 now had double ear infection even while on the Omnicef. He said they were picking this up most likely from Jeremiah or Michael and their immunity is so low they just couldn't fight it where we could. So he is not saying their ears has never cleared up this entire time but with the runny nose continuing if they had they only got infected again. He decided to do the 3 day round of Rocephin shots with them. That was so hard since I did it by myself. Thankfully they do now mix some Lidocaine in with it so it isn't as painful. Avary and Prestyn showed a local reaction to the shot yesterday and today both. It was a little worse today. Avary actually started hiving all over his body once we got home so back we went. It did not affect his breathing or throat. It does not eliminate the total denial for him getting them again but they will only give them as last resort. UGH... What next

Bradden has slightly increased in eating. It is a tiny tiny bit but he is still trying. I am getting him to also take 3 cups of formula now a day plus what I put in his cereal and milkshake. According to the scales he had lost 3 ozs but that is in I believe 2 wks. I think that was last time he was weighed. Anyway he had only lost that which could be just the scales. The pedi said after he is at least 80 % better and still not taking in at least 1/2 of his pre-sickness calories then he is sending us to the children's feeding therapy clinic here to have the feeding tube consult and therapy sessions evaluated. We will discuss this more soon.

He went to speech evaluation today. I was canceling it but the next was in Oct so I kept it. He actually felt well so he did well. He scored 28-36 mos in all areas developmentally and in language forms except verbal language. He only scored 9-12 mos in that area. They are recommending therapy once a week but the crazy waiting list is like 6 mths long. HELLO??? I am going to look into other routes tomorrow for he and Bradlee both. If they would have told me this last week about the waiting list I would've done went to another private agency. This is suppose to be the big children's therapy center the specializes in all areas of the body. With that wait he will be grown. LOL

OK so I have rattled. I am going to read some post. I am going to try to and respond but my computer keeps having trouble finding the server. I will be back on soon.

I do want to ask please keep me in your prayers the next couple of days. We have to be completely out of our house by the 26th. That is the day that the foreclosure happens I guess. That is the date on the letter. I have the entire house minus the Living room, kitchen, 1 bathroom, and part of our bedroom to pack. I am having a real hard time with my health, the PPD, and everything else. Just pray the Lord give me the strength to get everything done and gives me uplifting spirits. I feel like such a failure as a Mom that Michael and I can not even keep our own home for our children and there are so many nights that I lay in bed thinking how am I going to buy the babies formula tomorrow. Please I am in no way begging for nothing. I just want prayers for strength and uplifting to get me through this time. Thanks so much everyone... ~Carla

Jul 24, 2008
DS #1 (7/05) - Just ReDX'd Refluxer! Prevacid Solutab starting 4/8/09. Lots of food and environmental allergies. Autism, Sensory Processing Disorder, Speech Delays, Developmental Delays, Severe Muscle Tone Weakness.
DS #2 (1/08) ReDX'd refluxer. Milk and soy allergies with Soy Lecithin allergies. Oat milk drinker, Rice protein powder, DHA, and vitamins added for bulk and needed nutrition. Weak muscle tone, slightly developmentally delayed, SPD confirmed.
Prayers abounding for you! I am so sorry you are going through all of this. It must just feel like you are drowning. It's not a good place to be. Hang in there, keep your eyes on God and just really focus on the events at hand. Boy, I wish I had the perfect words of wisdom for you. ((HUGS))
Jul 24, 2008
Josh 12 yrs colic as a baby
Jenna 6 yrs dream baby
Jessica (6/11/07) Silent reflux dx at 3 weeks
Went off meds successfully at 3 mos
Went back on Prevacid 8 mg TID 1/3/08
((HUGS)) and prayers. Cristy
Jul 24, 2008
Worry Wart mom to
27 mo. reformed "happy spitter"
34.8lbs , 37in tall(oct)
Diagnosed A/R at 6 wks
Zantac until 1yr then Prevacid
Med free since February 08
peanut & egg allergies...still
Zoo Boo Trick-or-Treating (pic).
Geesh, Carla! I wish things would improve for you guys. Is there any other local support for some of your expenses? I will say a prayer for you all.
Jul 24, 2008
Bryson (3/06), former Neocate, Nexium, and Reglan baby. Diagnosed with peanut allergy and asthma. Weaned from meds in Spring 0f 08. Brother, Parker (6/04), was also on Prevacid and Pregestimil (formula) as an infant.
Carla, I am praying for you! I wish we were all closer to help get you through with support. Just know that you are in our thoughts! I pray the boys will get through their infections with this round because I am sure that is a lot of stress. It is extremely stressful caring for sick, young children. Take care of yourself!
Jul 24, 2008
Donnessa, mom to Halley born 3/10/07
Reflux (mostly) resolved at 14 months
and Addison born 8/17/09. Currently exclusively bf and on 7.5mg Prevacid
Oh goodness, Carla. You're doing such a great job holding your family together...I would have been in the loony bin already. I think and pray for you often. Hang in there!
Jul 24, 2008
Melissa - Mommy to Sebastian, born 9/28/07 @ 7 lbs 7 oz and 20.75 in. At docs at 12 months: 27 pounds and 32 in! Good grief! GERD - currently on Prevacid suspension (liquid equivalent of 45 mg a day). Allergic to dairy, soy, eggs, wheat, all treenuts, peanuts, fish, shellfish, peas, sesame, bananas, barley, coconut, dust, dust mite, dog, cat, latex. Seasonal allergies. Oral Allergy Syndrome (OAS). Neocate only - no solids - until further notice (drinks and loves water, too). Loves his doggie, our rescued Treeing Walker Coonhound, Louise, even though he is allergic to her. Louise will make your doctor a homemade pie if you would like her to. PHOTO: We couldn't do a cake on Sebastian's birthday, but that didn't stop him from tossing around the contents of a big bowl of popcorn! He now tries to eat it when we play with popcorn, so no more of that game.... :(
Good grief; I don't know how you do it. I would totally be on the bottle now. I am praying that you have plenty of easy days ahead and that your babies all feel better spontaneously overnight!
Jul 24, 2008
You've got a lot on your plate. God bless and hang in there!
Check with your
doctor first!